Am I wise now?

So I had my wisdom teeth pulled on Tuesday morning, and I've decided it's the most effective diet I've ever heard of. It's soo much trouble to eat right now that I just don't, plus my choices are fairly limited...I can have warm pudding (I finally put the last two in the fridge tonight), soup as long as I don't try to eat any of the noodles or veggies, V8 is a good choice, and, of course, yogurt.

But really that's not the most exciting part about these wisdom teeth. See, me and mum together scared the dentist enough that he called me when he went home that night.

So I go under the IV sedation because, I really don't want to remember them drilling into my mouth, cutting my teeth into small pieces and taking them out and then sewing the holes shut. (I honestly don't know how they did it, I have a small mouth.) So, as I'm coming out of the sedation I'm muttering up a storm, I thought I was at home in my sister's part of the house, then in Hawaii with Justin, I even talked about my oldest brother Ben.
So mum is just sittin' there pattin my head trying to get me to wake up. After a bit I can hold my eyes open for about 10-15 seconds I figure. And then the exciting part.
See mum always wanted to be a nurse, but on the day the class went to see the cadaver she decided she wouldn't make such a great nurse, and skipped class.
So she's gettin a little wousy watching me. She knows this, she's passed out before so she puts her head between her knees, she was already sitting down. I look over and open my eyes just long enough to see her roll to the floor.
So, I'm still incredibly drugged, she's on the floor, and I start screaming bloody murder in the best my-lips-are-still-numb voice I can muster. When the doctor and nurse finally got there (they took awhile cause they're used to people screaming) I was half way out of the chair, which is hard to do and a little dangerous when you can't even lift your own head, and mum was on the floor.
She's fine. Just a bump on the head but Dad has now decided that the next medical thing any of us kids have to do, he's going and leaving Mum at home.

Guilty...

This is a very odd feeling. I feel guilty that I am done with my finals before my best friend. I feel even worse knowing that mine were WAY easier than his. At a few points in the semester I felt like this was a hard one. But this week would've been a lot worse if it had. I had it easy. I had one hard class and the rest I kinda just slid by doing what I wanted and cruisin'.
And now I'm stressin' over HIS finals. I can't do anything about it and it's driving me mad! I do what I can, ya know encouraging words, food, hugs. I may even be entertaining his family at his graduation banquet, without him...
I hope he's in the test by now...I hope he does good...

"Well, what can ya do?"
"I can worry!"

Late Night Quizzes...

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A new view on mooching...

So i told one of my friends today that i need to stop mooching off of her. (she's constantly taking me to lunch these days. can ya guess who it is?) Her response was:
"This isn't mooching. Think of it like this, I enjoy cooking for you but I really suck at it. Plus it's just cheaper to buy you chili and rice."

When i repeated that to the group later in the meal they couldn't stop laughing. They like to feed me ice cream.

Look mommy! I'm growing up!!

That's totally what I feel like. I'm 20 yr old now. I should be more mature. I should know more. I should know by now how to get answers better, well, i think i figured out again how I get my answers. It just proves how social i really am.
Life is good. After an insane weekend of constant people and no sleep and spending money and hoping I don't smell cause I hadn't even been home in...roughly 20 hours. Even in all the confuzion my mind is trying to sort out I still feel good. I can thrive during the remainder of this semester.

Anywho, my mum knows me well, she got me "Lord of the Beans." It's a VeggieTales based on Lord of the Rings! YES!! My friends know me well too, they kidnapped me to the beach and gave me "Madagascar" I love the Lemars!!! the King of the Lemars is my hero. ok not really but he's still awesome. I also got a guitar pic necklace to replace the turtle I lost. As I said, Life is good.

Many Faces of Justin

Ok so I just thought this was funny and decided it needed to be posted for all you who know this crazy little kid we call "benson boi"...

Random Quotes...

so here's the question of the day, what is the best setting for each of these quotes to have been said in? (Yes these are really quotes either I or a friend have said in the last semester)

"100 dollars worth of spandex!"

"I'm a 6 star hotel"

"Even if the voices aren’t real they have good ideas"

"Never do anything you wouldn’t want to explain to the paramedics"

"I’m being special"

"I’m not good at empathy, will you accept sarcasm"

"If it wasn’t for physics and law enforcement I’d be unstoppable"

we also decided these would be good on t shirts :D

PS...

By the way, I have started another blog dedicated solely to ME!!!
Ok it's a compilation of the stories written of your very own superhero, Capt Caf!!!
go look: http://theadventuresofcaptcaf.blogspot.com/

I just thought I'd show y'all what I looked like for Halloween. This is the best shot I have of me at the All Hale Activity! Don't ya love the gun?

Ok, everyone kept asking, and by everyone i mean like 2 people, kept asking what mafia i was part of...was I italian or russian or just a personification of the idea of mafia? i think the last fits best. I'm just all of them put together :D

Sweets Party!!

so last night was the sweets party! it was freaking awesome! not only did we get to practice looking freaking awesome for tomorrow, well actually tonight. it's the All Hale Activity so we have to be impressive ;) I'll put a pic up later...
so anyways the highlights of the night were:
Alex and Disney getting in an icing fight and Disney getting his face completely covered in Domino's icing
A sugar eating contest between four boys, Darren won, he got kised by every girl in the room. Disney and Mark lost, they danced to the entire song "Barbie Girl" by Aqua. :D
Jolley standing on a chair and singing "I'm taking home a baby bumble bee..."
After the party a debate about politics/government that went till 2am

Overall it was a great party! and we all looked good. Laters!

I'm having so much fun!

i really am having fun. life should be that way right? it's always good if you can enjoy the serious side as well, like stats and such. I love it! which is good cause I have a test starting tomorrow. so i will be crawling into my personal hole i call the library to study and finish the homework until tuesday around 1pm. then i will be in the testing center till like 4 or 5. I hope i do better on this one then the last one. :(

by the way, everyone in the world should be forced to listen to "Last Rose of Summer (intro)/Walking in the Air" by Celtic Woman. It's seriously good. and if you had a childhood like mine you'll recognize the tune. :D if you want to listen to it just tell me I'll send ya a clip.

More adventures of Capt Caf

Another email from Mike at work had me reading as fast as i can. I couldn't wait to see what happened next. the sad part, i should already know this, it's about my life! hehehhe here ya go, this one's a long one :)

This reminds me of the time Capt. Caf went to take on the dreaded Magnus Wafer. This part of the story takes place not too long before the "Fall of Capt. Caf!" Saga, but after the "Let the gouda times roll!" wars. You see, Magnus Wafer was to the snack business what Wal-Mart is to the supermarket business. Being in such a position, he controlled much of the galaxy's wallet, making himself quite rich and greedy. When he heard of the fall of his minion Swissolf Cheesler, he decided to get even with the dreaded (among thieves, evil villains, and evil genius types) Capt. Caf! The scene, the City of Floating Marshmallows in a River of Chocolate (or just CFMRC for short... I know, they weren't too creative when it came to naming things. Which is why most of their children ended up being named Jack and Jill). You had come here in search of your friend, Jack Puff, in hopes that he would aid you and your allies with the location of the Free Thinker's Club. With the aid of the Free Thinkers, along with the remaining Random and Not-So-Random superheroes, you could take down the overcontrolling and evil Magnus Wafer. Unfortunately, before you had arrived, Magnus Wafer had bought Jack Puff's allegiance with enough graham crackers to turn CFMRC into Smores Town, forcing him to turn you over to the evil snack tycoon. Jack Puff eventually did turn CFMRC into Smores Town and forced his way into the position of Mayor. Despite the initial indignation of the townspeople at the change, it turned out to be for the better, and everyone was much happier, but since Jack Puff had acquired his power through questionable means, and since people who do things the wrong way never have a happy ending, he ended up being outvoted at the next election, removing his diplomatic immunity, and then was punished by being fed to a giant chocolate worm. Anywhozits, back to Capt. Caf's dillema. Magnus Wafer finally had Capt. Caf and her companions captured, but as they were being led back to his ship, Capt. Caf pretended to trip and fall to the ground, but only so she could get to eating away the floor (the whole place WAS made of marshmallows afterall) creating a hole through which chocolate began rushing through very quickly. Capt. Caf and the rest of her companions took advantage of the chaos that ensued and escaped, but Magnus, however, wasn't so easily fooled, and immediately pursued Capt. Caf to a Marshmallow generator where she had hoped to hide out until things calmed down, and maybe snack a bit. With the way CFMRC was set up, the running chocolate river would have destroyed it within a day. In order to prevent that from happening, they had to have people constantly working and adding on Marshmallow to all the floating platforms to keep them from disappearing. The factory was placed farthest upstream than any other building so that it could drop its Marshmallow load into the river, where it would be carried down by the river and grabbed by whoever needed it for repair/construction at the time. Well, since Marshmallow was a constant need for the city, it was pretty much an automated building. People would bring in sugar and fuel to supply the factory with power and material with which to create the Marshmallows. It would constantly work, and then after filling up a resevoir, it would automatically push the payload through a shaft that protruded from the side of the building over the river, then out onto the river itself, and begin the process over again. Well, as all superheroes and villains know, the most dramatic place to have a showdown between good and evil is on a precariously perched or dangerous battlefield. What better place to have a fight on then, than the shaft that stuck out from the side of the building. So, after agreeing to take the fight outside like any self-respecting hero or villain would do, Capt. Caf and Magnus Wafer both climbed out onto the narrow platform-like shaft. Magnus was a little scared at first, and so to get him out there, Capt. Caf took the lead and the more precarious position further away from the factory, only then would Magnus come out to fight. After realising that they both would have trouble fighting physically on such a dangerous place, they decided to bring the fight down from fists to just words. Despite the lack of physical pain, the two had a rather heated argument. Magnus, however, had a trump card, and when the moment was right, he revealed an awful secret about Capt. Caf's past. The conversation went a little like this.

Magnus Wafer: "Capt. Caf, join ME on the DARK SIDE! You BELONG here!"
Capt. Caf: "NEVER!"
Magnus Wafer: "But, Capt. Caf, I AM YOUR LOGO DESIGNER!"
Capt. Caf: "NNNOOOOOOOO!"

Capt. Caf got a little lightheaded from screaming "no" so loudly and for so long and accidentally lost her balance, falling into the river of chocolate in a dramatic fashion that would make any Cartoon mini-saga announcer start asking those dumb questions right before the show ends, making you wait an entire week to see the next part, like "Is this the end of Capt. Caf? And who exactly is this enigmatic Magnus Wafer? Is he REALLY the logo designer for Capt. Caf?" and then followed up with that oh so annoying "FIND OUT NEXT WEEK!" and then the show usually ends up being cancelled because you were the only one interested in it. But since this is neither a real cartoon nor am I an annoying cartoon announcer, you get to find out what happens now. It is NOT the end of Capt. Caf (DUH!) I've already said who Magnus Wafer is. And yeah, he is the logo designer for Capt. Caf, which adds to how it is Capt. Caf turned to the Dark Side later in the series. Turns out, falling into the chocolate river just encased Capt. Caf in a hard shell of chocolate. After floating down the river a bit in order to escape, Capt. Caf began eating her way out, and eventually made her way back to the Side of Flaming Random Pork N' Beans with a Pinch of Salt Club.

What Movie/Famous Leader Are You?

What Classic Movie Are You?
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So I seem to be a movie I've never heard of...but it's by Frank Capra who is freaking awesome! And...

What Famous Leader Are You?
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The reasoning behind me being this seems interesting...

Mike's random story episode .563

Ok, so I couldn't help but share this story Mike wrote to me in an email. I hope he keeps going on tangents like these, I LOVE THEM!!

Wait... you forgetting what you were going to say is odd? I thought that was part of your persona. You know, part of your superhero ego. Its like that one time (I feel another mini saga coming... maybe...) you were deep within the bowels of the cream cheese icing factory on planet Mini-China. This part of the story takes place several years before the "Fall of Capt. Caf!" Saga during a period known as the "Let the gouda times roll!" Wars. You see, it was at this point that the random superhero league hadn't developed a weakness to cheese, and were therefore the Universe's only hope at stopping the evil cheese mastermind Swissolf Cheesler. Anyway, you and the some random superheroes (along with a few not-so-random superheroes) had tracked down the location of Swissolf Cheesler to the very same Cream Cheese Icing factory you were infiltrating. A part of Swissolf's evil plan was to build a cream cheese cake icing gun big enough to cover the universe in cheesy sweet goodness. Now, you're probably thinking, "Hey, Cream Cheese icing is pretty good stuff!" but this cream cheese icing was different. It contained a virus that would enter peoples bodies undetected and attack their digestive system, but would only attack the part that makes people lactose tolerant. Its effect, however, was to not only make people lactose intolerant, but to make the specific lactose and ingredients found in cheese to be deadly. Now, killing off everyone isn't exactly the BEST way to become ruler of the universe. You have to have SOMEBODY to rule over. Swissolf realized this, so instead of hitting everyone with pure cheese, he intended to use Cream Cheese icing, which contained relatively little cheese, and more sugar, making it more irresistable to eat than some of the best gouda. The main purpose of using the diluted cheese was to introduce the virus into everyone's bodies, and at the same time, merely weaken them and put them at his mercy. The moment you entered the factory you figured his plan out, because, like all evil geniuses, he couldn't help but start listing off every single detail about his plan before executing it whilst a superhero hid cleverly in the shadows of the rafters. Just as he initiated the launch of a large Cream Cheese Icing glob towards his first target, you swooped into action and crushed him. It was a really easy fight actually. A lot of evil geniuses overlook some necessary parts of running a successful world domination conglomerate. In this case, he forgot to get security and bodyguards and big evil robots to stop intruders. Go fig. Anywho, the launch of the first sweet creamy cheesy ball of death couldn't be stopped, and it was sent squirting out into space towards the orbiting space base of the Random (and Not-So-Random) superheroes. The superheroes, thinking that such a large glob of goodness was a token of surrender, immediately caught it in their tractor beam, brought it in, and used it to ice several thousand cakes, which happened to be on "emergency standby in case some means of topping them comes floating suspiciously into our tractor beams." Something that surprisingly has happened before, but at the time they didn't have the cakes, so they were sad to have to let all the butter cream icing go that passed by them when a Bakery supply store blew up. As the Random Superheroes were going about getting ready to eat the stuff, you came running in and said "WAIT!..." Everyone stopped and looked at you weird, but when you admitted you had forgotten what you were going to say about Swissolf Cheesler's big evil plan to make people weak against cheese, they commenced eating every bit of it. Some of the Random superheroes even ate it plain, it was just THAT good! The Not-So-Random superheroes however, were currently on the Atkins diet, and couldn't touch the stuff. They couldn't finish their diet in time to enjoy the cream cheese icing, but they're better off for it, since now they don't share the weakness to cheese that their Random Superhero friends now suffered from. You didn't eat any of it at the time, on account of you having just finished a footlong subway sub and being too full. You had planned on eating some later, but it was all gone by then. Anywho, thats how come the Random Superheroes came to be weak against cheese... and to think, its partly your fault for forgetting to tell them what you were gonna say. Anywho, hope you had a good lunch (since its obviously over now) and that you didn't eat anything with cream cheese icing on it... now I'm never going to look at the stuff the same again... man, the things I do to myself.

Another quote of the day

As Emo says:

Courage is just another form of stupidity.

Quote of the Day

"Yay! I'm critical!!"
as said by Kelsey in Social Pysc class :)

Mike's random story.

Ok, i did not write this, i'm not instantly genius enough for that. But Mike wrote it about me. :D

You're not the evil doer... yet... later on in the series you switch to the dark side, then get put at the mercy of some random superhero who gives you the choice of eating chalk for time and all eternity, or to rejoin the side of good, a.k.a. side of flaming random pork 'n' beans with a pinch of salt club. You tell the random hero that you'll change back, then while his back is turned, you decide that nah... you're not ready to go back yet... so you kill him by stabbing a block of cheese through his arm, which just happened to be his and several other random superheroes weakness, all of whom attempted to change you back to the good side, but fell for the same stupid trick, and by then, even if you wanted to change back, it had become a force of habit to stab them with a block of cheese after asking you to change and then turning their back. Apparently the rest of the random superhero league didn't know how you had been taking out their heroes, so they just kept coming in with the same tactics, gettin' cheese block'd every time, and losin' heroes like rednecks at an opera. Eventually a not-so-random superhero came in and played out the same scenario, except he wasn't weak against cheese, so when you poked him with the blunt object he just turned around and you said "Sorry, force of habit." Then it dawned on him how his comrades had fallen, and both of you realised how stupid they were and had a good laugh about it. Thats about the end of that mini-saga... you never have any more evil tendencies... although you have been known to accidentally cheese some comrades during battle... whether you accidentally fired in the wrong direction or if you intentionally did it they never knew... but they didn't want to question you for fear of angering you and makin' you go bad again... Anywho, its a great story, you ought to read it some time...

violent prophets

hum...so i kinda want to start a like "deep" conversation here, but i don't know how at the moment.
ok here's some little info i read today in 1 Kings. It's the only thing I'm reading/learning about thats a little more general.
the prophets were kinda...mean,to put it nicely, during that time period. So Elija comes along and proves that all the Baal prophets either don't know what they're talking, or do know and are just lieing to all the people. so after he proves that with God's fire, he slaughters all of them!! that's like 50 people!! was reform impossible? A long while after that Elisha is now the prophet. Elijah just died. Some kids come around and make fun of his shiny head so he sicks a couple bears on them! Here's my reaction while reading "that's not very nice"
So i'm just wondering...why were the prophets so seemingly violent? I mean Hinckley may prove that the pope is wrong in something but he doesn't have him killed for it.
I don't get it.

so i'm wearing my boy scouts shirt today. i love this shirt. it's a great conversation starter. so it was raining cats and dogs outside, literally, they weren't so happy to be falling from the sky either, but now it's just spittin i think. which is good cause eventually i would like to leave this wonderful "great comupter bunker". as much as i love the HUGE screen on these comps my head hurts and i want something to drink. which is a fairly random thought. this whole blog is pretty random. which reminds me:
FLAMING HOMOSEXUAL CARTOON CHARACTERS!! that's a little side note from mike.
so i sent my mum her birthday present today. she now has to make it so i can wrap it when i get home. the funny part is this is exactly what she wanted. i guess she was bored without me around :)
well, off to one of my loves, sife or stats.
oh yea, i have a lucky penny!

Gratitude.

I'm grateful for:

music, emails, smell of rain, cell phones, Presidents, schedules, computers, stats, professors, to do lists, flash drives, excedrin, backrubs, theatre make-up, old shirts, PJ's, hoodies, people watching, friends, good feelings, understandings, meetings, love...

i could keep going with the list but i really should get back to my tutoring room. :)

what are you grateful for today?

Favorite Things...

being called at night for no reason at all.

ok, that was odd.

So last night I went over to a friend's house to help babysit. He lives in their garage and he wanted to be nice so he let them go out for a walk while he watched their 5 kids. The youngest is just starting to eat solid food, like yogurt. and the oldest turned 8 not to long ago. My friend called and in the background the baby is crying. so i said i'd head over. It was so much fun!! their kids are the cutest little devils. hehehe...
anywho, i got the baby to fall asleep fairly easily and he stayed asleep most of the time, while the others watched bob the builder. interesting show.
The funniest part of the night was when the parents came home though. I was holding and rocking the baby in clear view of front door, so that's the first thing they see right. this wouldn't be so funny except that the husband is my stats teacher. :)
it's always interesting to see people fulfilling different roles than you're used to. :)

"You have a warped idea of fun"

That's a comment from Carcar concerning the beloved superhero whose blog you're reading. This comment was made after i pronounced that Stats was gonna be fun. yes, i'm excited for this incredibly hard class. I like challenges, especially in academics. I see this as my chance to prove myself as a real scientist (well gonna be scientist) not just some chick that happens to be in a science program in college. this is the weeding out class for psyc majors. they're trying to scare us into being social workers. I want to do research and fun stuffs like that. yes i like to help people but i'd rather experiment to help more people.

oh yes, if y'all didn't know i am the executive seceratary of SIFE, Students in Free Enterprise. Besides being the best team any campus can have, it is the most self-fulling. :) We're totally looking for volunteers to do some grunt work etc. so if you have free time just tell me. i can fill it easy!

i think i'm a lepor...

so i will soon be shipped to an abandoned island to live out my sad existance as a lepor. ok not really i'm just shedding from my burn, very annoying but I'll survive.
I wonder what it would be to be told you are no longer good enough for society...how would your family react? would you cry or be angry at the world? would you rebel and run away to a different society hoping they will take you in or would you accept your fate? how if your fate was to be sacrificed to a monster that lived in a labyrinth in a completely different land?

burn baby!

ok so i'm the official idiot of the day. so yesterday was an awesome day for the beach and i haven't been in the ocean once since i've gotten back. I haven't even swam at all in 2 months!! i'm dieing here! so i go play at the beach. first i fall asleep on the sand for almost 20 min after swimming for like 15 min or so, alone. then about an hour later or so Justin and Dixie come and we all go play in the water for at least an hour if not longer. Thru this whole thing i did not put any sunblock on. yes that is why i'm a bright red idiot that couldn't sleep. I woke up so many times last night trying to either cool off or warm up. BLAH!!! i hope it doesn't peel... :(

Inspiration!!

well if you wanna call it inspiration that works but I think I just want to say a few things that I like. One: Good songs. Two: Good songs that mean something. Three: Good songs that mean something peaceful. Four: Good songs that mean something peaceful and inspire you to act accordingly. Right now disney seems to fit that profile. I'm listening to my little MP3 player so I just heard "Candle on the Water" which I love! It always makes me want to help people. It inspires loyaltly as well, a trait that is not always present when needed. Now it's changed to "The Lion Sleeps" which is just one of those feel good songs. And feeling good is always conducive to treating others well, as they deserve. :)

parting blues...

my time is very odd. when i have forever before I leave somewhere I feel like it's tomorrow, which oddly doesn't inspire me to go out with friends, but to cook and clean and think a lot about packing. And when i have about 3 days before i leave i act and feel as though i have months! it really messes me up. like tonight, my last night i'm here i decide to have some friends over and have a bit of a bbq, i found filet mignon in the freezer, i was in heaven, even if i wasn't hungry. we roasted marshmellows in the firepit i just built, my dad thought that was illegal and i said i wouldn't make the fire big. I completely blackened a pineapple, that was sad i had to cut the black off. we ate so much junk i really should be sick. all this on my last night. Last nights are usually slow, relaxing yet stressful, just hang with the fam stuff. i think i'm just being weird for some reason.
so i have decided once again, i hate packing. those who had to move me before spring know this, i suck at it. and it always makes me feel like such a girl!! why can I not live without this crap!!? why do i own makeup!? why do i have jewelry? why do i want to cook this year? why do i have so many clothes?!! and i'm leaving quite a few, and i've thrown a bit out too. *heavy sigh. oh well, my bag is too heavy and i'm hopeing they don't care. i ended up with 2 carry-on's anyways cause it's just easier with a comp bag. i'm really just rambling....and i don't know why. thinking about a few things and really should be sleeping. i will travel for 19 hrs tomorrow, and be home and exhausted by 10. yuck.

people are naturally good.

the above statement has of late been re-confirmed to me. see i accidently left my purse, which had been entirely covered in duck tape earlier, in the grocery basket when my mum and me went shopping. we didn't realize this until we had got home. heehee i drove without a license, twice! well this alberstons was about 20 min or so away. so 20 min to get home, about 10 to realize it's gone and another 20 to get back, when it hadn't been turned into customer service by then we figured i'd never see it again. so another 20 min and i'm on the phone to VISA and Bank of Hawaii and the driver license people. (Bank of Hawaii has the best waiting music, by the way.) My dad also looked up if anything could be done about my new toy, the 6MP casio as well as the 1gig memory card...nothing can be done. well, that's sad and I better learn from this, i say to myself and head off to get ready for the murder mystery dinner, which was freakin AWESOME!! i was accused of murder as the puppet lady!! it was great!
so anywho, this "morning", it was almost noon but i hadn't been up too long, i called the albertson's just to see if anyone had turned it in. *totally vallery girl here: oh my gosh are you serious?! i'm totally coming to get it now. Another 20 min and i'm back at customer service claiming my duck tape purse. surprise surprise, the very little cash, the gum, lip gloss, credit card, ids, debit card, AND the camera were all still inside. they hadn't even opened it!
therefore, people are naturally good.

girls should not touch cars.

so today i broke my daddy's car. yea i took it in for the oil change
which it needed bad. and the guy said i needed a new fuel filter too
and tire rotation. about 40 min later after walking around aimlessly i
come back and the guy tells me something is wrong with the starter.
WHAT!!?? stupid. so i called my other friend and he says it sounds
like an alternator went out. and I do what about this? oh yes, i'm the
stupid one who parked it in the garage and now it won't start. we'll
be pushing it out later. yay go me. girls should not touch cars.

very sad...well sorta

Ok i just discovered something that makes me very sad. see i'm taking eng 315 online, blah!! it's not bad, just annoying. i wish i could've just skipped over the subject completely. oh well, so...i have to write a research paper for the 2nd half of the class, the 1st half was all little 2 page essays. I was hopeing most of the time that I could like revamp an old research paper, work a little more on it but not have to write an entire paper again for this class. the teacher gave me the idea everytime he said "if you can apply this to another class, do so". I'm like "hey, this could work." BLAH! no it can't for many reasons. the biggest is that all my old research papers were very very very specific to the requirments of the class. *sigh. so i can't cheat and my weekends are gone, so don't expect to play with me on saturdays, i'll be in the library doing a research paper, that is if i have my other homework done.

drumroll....sorry

ok i don't have another story at the moment. i really don't write that often. i might again later though. for now i'm just wondering when i got all against curfews, i used to be good, ya know before college. now i'm like an hour and a half LATE! not so cool. just like....3 more saturdays and i'm back to no curfew and having to inforce one myself cause i have like 7am classes i'm so smart. blah!

What would happen if...

Can one seemingly small event change your life dramatically? What would happen if as you stroll through the park with your boyfriend, he thumps some random stranger over the head? First of all you scream; any respectable, well breed girl screams when her boyfriend fights. Once your initial duty scream is over, you yell at them to stop. You are hoping a police man will enter the scene as they always do in films. Why don’t they have good timing in real life? You’re getting quite scared for your boyfriend, the other guy is huge and no one is appearing to help. Finally, it comes to a stand still with the other guy clearly about to finish off your boyfriend; this man could eat you for dinner! But, something amazing happens. The other guy looks up into your horrified and pleading eyes and lets your boyfriend go. As the random stranger walks off you fall to your knees to help your man.
“What was that?” you ask. Your boyfriend, still spitting blood, explains he had been defending your honor. The random stranger had been eyeing you with the look no “peter priesthood” gives to anyone but his wife. Most respectable men don’t ever know how to give that look. Your disgust justifies his fight.
As you enter your apartment alone that night you wonder about the day’s happenings. He had always told you how gentle hearted he was. He had said he hated violence. He had said he wouldn’t ever start a fight. He had lied to you! What else did he lie about? You need time away from him to sort this out in your mind. He needs at least 24 hours to recover from that fight; that would give you time.
The next afternoon he calls you. You’ve secretly decided to forgive him and try to start again, so you quickly accept his invitation for dinner in a few nights. He tells you to wear that red cocktail dress he likes. You’re going to a fancy dinner.
He picks you up at 7:30 as planned and he’s wearing a brand new tux. You are going to a really fancy dinner. His limo, that you never knew he had, drives both of you to the most exclusive restaurant in town. Doubts of the man sitting next to you begin to rise again. You gather your courage and as he escorts you into the dining area you ask who’s paying for this extravagance. He smugly replies that he is. He had just received a bonus at work and wanted to treat you to a night on the town. “A bonus from Blockbuster could pay for this?” you wonder. Something feels very wrong.
The next morning you hire the best detective you can afford to follow him for a few days. Avoiding him isn’t hard. You have a huge project at work and the deadline is soon. Mr. Moonlight, your incredibly expensive detective, comes to your office to show you his findings. You listen to the tapes and stare at the pictures. You cannot believe it! Your boyfriend belongs to the Mafia! He had recently blackmailed a man who paid him to keep quiet.
As you struggle to breathe he calls. It’s time for your lunch date. Still stunned you amble down the stairs to meet him. One look and he knows something’s wrong. One look and you know you cannot endure one sentence with this potential killer. You dart for the door but he grabs your arm first. After instructing you to act normal and keep quiet he leads you out the door. He’s kidnapping you.
After a few days with no sign of payment your hired detective gets worried. He goes to your parents. They had received a ransom note that morning. Going directly against the note’s instructions Mr. Moonlight calls the sheriff and begins planning. Your parents, Mr. Moonlight, and the sheriff’s most trusted men are involved in a super secret plot to rescue you. You will never learn the details of that plan.
The plan worked perfectly. You return to your parent’s house where you watch Disney movies and eat ice cream for a week of recovery. Your ex-boyfriend is sent to jail with no hope of escape. His Mafia boss was not happy about the blackmailing. Soon enough everything pretty much goes back to normal.
That is what happens when as you stroll through the park with your boyfriend he thumps some random stranger over the head.

new fave song

just thought i'd inform y'all of my new favorite song.
Dela by Johnny Cleg, it's on the George of the Jungle soundtrack

The Island

Has anyone seen the new movie "The Island"? If you have email me what you thought. (colorful_wizard@yahoo.com) i don't wanna say much cause i don't wanna give anything away or take away your chance for independent thought but, holy crap! you need to see it! and you need to expect a lot of violence and pain involved. i hurt coming out of this movie. holy crap

ok so i don't know what to post.

I just wrote this. Some of you were there. And yes it is VERY embalashed, or whatever that word is. i made up details

Waiting for a Miracle

Everyone’s reason was different as we lay on the beach that night. Some wanted to escape pressures of college life, some to grow closer to one another, some for no reason at all. I was there to witness a miracle my friend has promised. There we were, all dozen of us on towels and sheets, around an illegal beach fire dug deep into the chilly sand. We huddled together in small groups. I lay close to my friend, waiting patiently for the beauty I had never seen.
We had arrived at the beach at sunset. It was beautiful but not what I had come for. For some that was the only beautiful moment in the sky. After that they did not look up. They stared only into the flames reflected off each other’s eyes. For us, the magic had not yet begun.
The stars awoke. Slowly they appeared until the entire sky seemed to have erupted with glittering lights. My eyes darted searching for my miracle. Still the stars sparkled with undeniable and unmoving beauty.
We could not hear our friends. We were in a world all our own with trivial conversation coming in spurts. We touched at our shoulders and heads but I could feel his warmth. The constant lullaby of the ocean waves calmed and drew us away from this earth bound existence. We stared upwards, where dreams come true. It takes only one shooting star. All my hopes could fly with that star to the dream-weaver, the one we all believe in.
He saw one! “Not fair!” I yelled. He had seen many in his life. I wished more than anything to experience nature’s magic manifested in the sky.
To take my mind off my failure he began to point out all the constellations. The Big Dipper and the Little Dipper were both easy. Even as a young girl I had been able to find those. He could find the Great Bear from that. Next was Orion’s Belt. That took only a second longer to spot. We tried to outline Orion but gave up because there were too many stars.
The waves continued to sing as we pointed out each star pattern. Its humming was the constant backdrop to our thoughts, spoken and silent. The waves were coming closer but they would never reach us near the fire. Logic told us that high tide would not come but logic did not matter. It was magic. Our fire, our friendship, our wishes made a ring around us that nothing could touch. Nothing could reach us but the cool of the sand seeping upwards and the heat of the flames flickering above our heads. The sweet sea air tasting like long lost memories finished the spell. Deeply we drank and hoped to taste stars.
Still, I had not yet made my wish. I had one; I knew I did not have long. Stars come and go as they please and as quickly as they can. So there I lay, attempting to be patient. The conversation halted. I was searching through all the constellations over and over again. He was doing the same, hoping he could help me, knowing he could never could. This was a mission I must accomplish on my own.
“Oh! I saw it! Did you see it?!” I sounded like a little school girl I was so excited. My friend simply smiled, entertained by at my girlish glee. I had made my wish. I had seen a heavenly angel shoot across the night sky on an errand too urgent to take the route humans cannot witness. What this star needed to accomplish that night I will never know. But its momentary presence is forever painted in my imagination. There was pure and simple happiness one never regrets; when all the senses are alight and the most majestic miracle streaks across the sky.

weird commercial

TV is still evil but i see more of it these days, mostly by accident. so i just saw a commercial for a chicken sandwich. they kept telling this chicken to do things, like juggle and catch and sit etc etc. yea so they decided the best thing for a chicken is to be eaten. sounds good to me.
i get new teeth tomorrow! yea!! that actually won't make much sense to y'all. oh well. make up what you want.
HAHAH!! this dude's AC caught on fire!! ahahhah!!! sux to be him.
laters

new faults.

ok i'm not sure why i'm putting this here. I think i want someone particular to read it w/o them knowing it was aimed at them. whatever. you don't need to comment by the way cause i'm sure it'll be weird to comment on it. I have found my two greatest...what are they called, achilles heels? anywho,it's jealousy and selfishness. Ok i've always known i'm the "jealous kind" which is annoying but i'm pretty good at getting rid of it or just living with it or whatever b/c i knew it was there. I could recognize it. lately i have found that I am also selfish. I didn't think i was for the longest time. of course i was when i was little but i didn't think i was now. maybe i just am with certain ppl. see i'm selfish in my relationships asking more than i am giving, even if i mean to give more it just doesn't seem like i do. hard thing to realize...i better start working on that. any suggestions?

so i've decided

ok so i've known this for a long time. I get sadder as the night goes on if i am alone. if i'm with ppl i can pull all nighters and not be accusded, however you spell that, of being depressed. But if I stay up all night on nani alone then i get a bit melancoly, just lonely really. missing home is all. i know i know, I am home. but not really. I don't think i really have a home right now. skool kinda is, and colorado is kinda too but ya know, home is where the heart is. I don't really know where my heart is. to tell the truth my head and heart are having a HUGE fight right now. i don't think they're even talking to each other. which gets confuzing trust me. anyways, i need to make a decision soon. it's hard to decide when your two halves aren't even talking. i think i'll think about it tomorrow. maybe someone will drive with me to the temple. it's so far away here, 45 min. i know i know i'm just looking for things to complain about. just a few more min and then to bed goodnight y'all

shiny shiny

Ok so me and E went to the mall today, mostly cause i couldn't think of anything else to do that didn't cost money. we went window shopping and tried anything that was free. it took up most of our day so it was good.
anyways, while wondering the mall Emo decided i really really really like shiny objects. We went into a few different jewelery shops, a nice crystal shop and a simply sterling store. I also pointed out everything that had sequins or shiny fabric. she really started to laugh at me. oh well, it was fun! like a racoon treasure hunt!!

This had to be blogged.

Ok so i'm sittin on the couch in our living room just checking emails and everything as my brother in law plays with our little bitty dog. He was sitting cross-legged on the floor moving the dog's toy around his body without moving, ya know, just handing it from hand to hand in front than behind and all that. He was doing it really slow at first so the dog was just kinda following and having fun. then James speeds up and the poor dog is literally running in circles. He looks like a planet that has a orbit that is too fast for its own good. After a little while we figure that the dog has gotten dizzy when after two quick rotations he goes flying off into the kitchen, around the table, outside, back inside, and collapses on the kitchen floor with his head kinda bobing to one side. I feel so bad for the dog but it's so funny at the same time. Luckiy the dog has wised up and won't play with James for another 10 min at least.

reed's greatest phrase

akward fluids that's all you gotta say

YUCK!!

Ok so here is one reason to never let your mother feed you. She makes nasty juice tells you it's good for your eyes and makes you drink it through a straw. Ok the straw was my idea but it's not really helping the taste of this homemade "healthy juice".

i'm dying here!

Alright, so I really really wanna see all the pics that Alan took while he was visiting but it won't let me get to it. when I type in www.alanadams.net/photos it says that it doesn't exist! help me people!

mountains of books.

so I just updated my list of books i've read. I've only included novels or plays, no textbooks or anything like that. After looking thru my boxes of books I have come up with a grand total of 73 books. beat that! haha.

I love this room.

We have just spent over an hour as girls just sitting and talkin' story. So many things can be discussed in this room! We can be totally out of character if we wish. We can be the strength for each other. We can tease or cry or crash and burn. Now it's past midnight. Rob just woke up. I got to say goodmorning, and he's now chatting with Sarah absorbing as much as her as he possibly can. Amanda is passed out on her bed finally where about 40 min ago Shan was dead to the world. I should eventually make it to my own bed but i'm just enjoying the moment for now. I'm learning to quiet my mind and just enjoy.

Shameless....

I don't remember the rest of that saying but here it is. Y'all should all get on NationStates.net. It is seriously cool! Y'all can all come and be in my region if you promise to comment sometimes on the board. We're all in the Refigerator or however you spell that. k i'm gonna go now.

Star Wars rock!

yea so that's my update, the girls are finally watching some more of Star Wars, we have been trying to watch episode 5 for over a week now.
"I am not a committee!"
That's a great one liner..that and of course "Who's scruffy looking?"

Hectic

so life is hectic but i love it.i just realized that i will not be at swing tonight and I was supposed to do something for it, maybe it's just the fact that another lover, (not mine) is coming in and needs to learn to swing, I will be at rehearsal though. YES! i love theatre! and this show is really quite good. you should come! ehhehe. cheap date, c'mon. anywho. i'm gonna get backt to my hectic life and get some work done. laters!

as a means of updating

the quote of the day for yesterday was:

"Muslim covers a multitude of sins"

said by my dear dr ferre. ehehhe.

hope it's true.

quote of the day

I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be.
Douglas Adams

we are AWESOME!!!

Ok, so I competed with the team at SIFE Nationals this weekendish. It was so cool! Tons of college kids all working in business service. Then seriously loads of companies buying for our future employment. they want all of us it's nuts!! they want us to much that they fed us, like enough for lunch, dinner and snacks (thus meals) for like weeks! Soo much free stuff you wouldn't believe these crazy recruiters. It was crazy cool and the best part...
We made it onto the stage! We are the 1st runner ups in League 17.
that might not sound like much to y'all since it means we didn't make it into the semi's but here's this: we've NEVER made it this far! Never before has BYUH made it onto the stage and honestly we didn't think we would this year again.
anyways, that's the update.

I'm not sure I can elaborate

Ok, so everyone that responded to my "kelsey's high" blog kinda wanted to know what's going on, except maybe our little missionary. He doesn't seem to curious. Here is all I will say on the subject of my current rose colored glasses. Twitterpated. It's a great state of being if you ask me. Especially when it's encouraged and no one is getting hurt. luv it!

Why am I updating?

So life is good. yep, that's basically it. if you really want details you might have to be in sarah's room. hehehe.

we're all getting skin cancer.

very fun to sit in the sun but then you burn. hehe. shan's is already fading, well all of our's is but her's is pretty much gone. mine is still pink and a little crunchy but it doesn't bother much. Sarah's on the other hand is killin her. she's shuttin herself up in her room for a few reasons, to do homeworks and to continuously put aloe on herself.
i have to go to work really soon. blah! i don't like work anymore. maybe i'll put in my two weeks notice when i get back from Kansas city.

nationstates ppl are the freakin' coolest!!!

"If you can't adequetly explain and defend the theory of evolution without resulting to religion baching you're too stupid to be an atheist.

If you believe there is no God because you're parents do you're too stupid to be an atheist.

If your only arguement is that religion makes no sense you are too stupid to be an atheist.

If you believe "there is something out there... but I don't follow religion", guess what? You're not actually an atheist... [idiot]!

If you can't accept that the theory of evolution will probally be replaced by a more accurate scientific belief in the future, you're too stupid to be an atheist.

If you're angry that I think you're stupid, you're to stupid to be a liberal."

just thought that was funny.

we'll get shan in on this

10!!!!! -40!!!!!! 10!!!!!! or maybe 102....

I will be history!!

Accutally I believe I will be legendary! Very soon I will read a story ALL ABOUT ME!!! see this is one of those dreams come true that totally proves that the world revolves around me! luv it!

life is getting better.

first, HEY EMO!!! I miss you so much. I thought i saw you in the caf at breakfast and i got really confuzed. by the way, we're not gonna change the script, at least not your part. well that's what me and justin and disney decided yesterday. and because i am the sexiest SIFE goddess, except for yourself, that is how it's going to be! HA!

Anywho, a few people have been wondering what's wrong lately. I haven't been myself and i can blame it on whatever my mood tells me to but i've made a goal, i'm going to be myself again. I 'm so glad classes have started again. I don't like not having anything to do.

yes judge, i am sexy.

Delicate Balance

There is an interesting balance in friendships. One must be careful not to say somethings and to express others. One must know when to touch when not to. With some it is easier because the relationship is more defined or it is simply less close on some levels. Sometimes I agree with Rob, I should just give up on social lives.

Song of the Night...

it's odd how i can represent all of me with a simple song. well i feel like i can, i dunno if it says everything but it says a lot. judge you might understand this well
song: the best i'll ever be

So howz it?

This is mostly for Kristin although anyone else who doens't feel like they know what's going on in my life might like it. I can't believe this week is almost over. Odd though since on monday it felt like a thursday. I'm sick and still don't get to bed before midnight it seems. tonight i'm calling Rob at 0030 to wake him up so he can do his homework, as soon as I get done with that i'm crashing. I just wrote an essay about Tim O'Brien's The Things They Carried. This is one good book. I have had my face buried in it for awhile now it seems. It's only cause it's my basis for my research and then I had to write a formalist approach to it as well. except for my research paper no more essays this semester! my last one is a poem! so exciting!
Highlight of the day! I got Stickies for my PC!! I was so excited when I found a free downloadable program. i've missed it since I haven't been working on Engdahl's mac. yes justin i miss workin on a mac, i've admitted it now do I still have to go to therapy? hehe.
luvs to all those who deserve it, want it, or need it!

Response?

This was gonna be a response to Justin's blog but it wasn't liking me so it'll end up here. It'll be my question of the day or whatever

Which is better, sudden urges of strong emotions that cannot be explained or suddenly realizing you haven't felt strongly for quite some time?

Today's Epiphany!

I am the best captive! I will follow the kidnappers declaring loudly that I have been kidnapped and they need to wait for me. I do not try to run as long as I have something shiney and if offered ice cream I will never leave again. Therefore if you ever wanted to kidnap a perfectly innocent angel come for me!

Wanna hear of a good feeling?

The best feeling of today, well very nearly, is finding that my english research paper that only needed to be 5 pages for tomorrow is acctually 7&1/4!!!! That means I don't really need to fix much, or at least i'm not gonna fix much!! i'm so excited!! life is good and it's 1:20am.

quick update on my life...

it's not finals yet i think this'll be what it feels like. I have on my academic agenda 2 tests and a total of 3 drafts due this week, (2 drafts for same paper). it's coming along I think...eegads i'm so behind in my reading too!
on social agenda i was supposed to go to the Testaments with Amanda tonight but i'm gonna miss like 30 min and i'm not sure if they want me walking in on that. they didn't allow it in SLC so... also, Winter ball this week and what am I gonna wear? Emarie was no help with that last night. ehhehe
luvs!( Kristin that part is soley for you!)

Ponder this.

Here's the question for the day, don't answer really quick.

When is it acceptable to dodge the draft?

Let's think of a Question....

where is the best place to throw a banana?

The week is almost over

This has been one crazy long week. That happens when you stay up way too late every night. Anyways, I wanted to think of another question and get some responses... that's easier said than done...

Is it wrong to adjust one line in a play so that it is not funny to the audience but it hilarious to the cast?

Fare thee well....

To some of you it may seem I just up and left in the middle of the night. I didn't, my plane left at 10 ha! anywho, This is an all inclusive GOODBYE!! to all those I didn't see in the last days on campus. I will be back in fall so don't worry too much. Until then I am safe in Denver and finding my room a complete wreck. And I thought I had a lot of junk in Hawaii, HOLY CATS!! i am definatly throwing some stuffs out.

yea so excited!! sing for joy!!

Ok so this is the hard part. I can finally get back into my blogger posting place. I had to clear my cache...? I'm still hopeing that has no unwanted side-effects. if it does it'll be "JUDGE!!! SAVE NANI!!!" really soon...

Ok so I have received a request through my voicemail that I need to add another question of the day...here's one.

What will your first words be to your best friend's mother?

(be creative people, i need a laugh.)

hum...

Is pursuing higher education selfish?

Question of the day!

Is it better to be loved or understood?

interesting concept?

When is it more cowardly to risk your life than to run?

I'm reading The Things They Carried by Tim O'Brien and he tells the story of how he took the easy way out and cowardly went to war! It was a different view for me to think that being patriotic is sometimes the easy out.

love is in the air HA!

I dunno why but I just decided that I love Judge. Ok don't take that wrongly. I've just decided he's the closest thing to a brother I have here. I just decided that when I was reading the definition he made of me. hehee...Yea, that's all I have to say today.

was gonna make a comment...

I WAS gonna make this a comment on someone else's blog but it wasn't working. stupid boy went and messed with his blog and made it all cool and now it doesn't work. ehhehe. have to tease

longing for something. That's a topic I could talk about all night.
isn't it odd how we can know a fact and it makes no difference until someone SAYS it out loud.
Listening is the most painful experience sometimes.

I did it again

So I just realized that I was walked home alone by a guy. which means that the hale ppl have seen me alone with a guy. this means i will be teased and everyone in the world will assume i'm dating and soon will be marrying this guy. sometimes ppl's assumptions are just out there. This semester I have already been mistaken for being someone's fiance, girlfriend--both of these multiple times and last but not least but Chris's wife! hehehe, I thought that was really funny, especially since it was his teacher that was asking and I've never even met his wife. Church campuses are weird in their own little ways. c'est la vie. and it gives my mom something to laugh at.

Pet Peeves.

Ok it probably doesn't count as a pet peeve but I hate being sick!! I realized this morning that I am now officially sick and i'm blamin it on EVERYONE! heheh, so that's my pet peeve. It's my excuse for cough drops. yipee!! Kelsey's version of drugs!

I love adventures..

Can I just say that I really truly love adventures. Now i'm not stupid enough to go out and look for them because they generally start very traumatically. They come along often enough without any coaxing. I suppose I should explain myself. Tonight a group of us went night repelling at a not too far beach. We crammed into the car and were totally ready for a full night of fun! Well, after at least 2 successful repels we had an accident. Luckily, it really doesn't add up to much more that a good fright, some pain, some singing, some pampering, more pain, and i'm sure stiffness and annoyingness eventually. Details of accident, our little gutsy friend full out jumped backward off the cliff and something went weird with the rope. She slowed her fall with her bare hand rubbing against the not so clean climbing rope. She's a trooper that's for sure. And i'm also sure she's in bed with a totally neosporined hand laying on top of the covers.
Interesting observations from tonight: Singing helps like you wouldn't believe. Priesthood blessings can make you wanna cry for no known reason. Dorm Dads rock. Not only does life seem to be in slow motion at times of other's pain but it also seems like I am watching the past. I feel like i've reacted as if I already know the outcome completely and i'm just fulfilling my duty as we go to get to that end. Very odd. Maybe cause i was never afraid for her life. It took me too long to figure out what was happening to be scared for that. The worst I came up with in my mind was she broke her hand, not that bad of a fate. (Acctually, dieing wouldn't be a bad fate for the one who leaves but that's a totally different subject.) Anyways, I think I've rambled on enough so I'll leave y'all alone. If you were there comment on that. If not how do you think you'd react, emotionally?

FYI

If you didn't already know I have a scrapbook website. I've just updated a bit, added a few new fun things so check it out!
www.jobug.piczo.com

hum...

Isn't it amazing how you can think that you know all of what someone else is thinking and be completly wrong? I love how the ppl that you know the best can still surprise you everyday. This is what makes it worth having friends. :P

odds and ends

CarCar is a pedaphile but she doesn't know what that is. Jolley is CarCar's Urim and Thummim. I am the Jr High kid that got picked on. Benson Boy is still Payson in my eyes. Amanda is a cowgirl on her own accord. Judge is the poet. And I still hold that Sarah is a cat.

i like life!

so the last blog was before the 3 1/2 hour talk. that helped at lot. ya know, i feel like FINALLY all of me agrees. i'm not fighting anything to keep someone else...not really happy just content or whatever. anyways, there's not a constant argument. luv it!

no sense

Ok, this post will make no sense to anyone except one. even for that one it might not because i get the feeling it's gonna be really random.
why do i get a sinking feeling?
why don't i wanna talk about it?
why do i wanna scream?
being demoted is REALLY annoying.
i'm obviously not that dangerous dizzy. i've gotten better, aren't you proud...(incredibly sarcastic and another emotion i hate to admit i even possess.)
i'm not special anymore. i don't like that, but then there's the other side.
i hate illogical kine.
it's kind cold
best i'll ever be...............stupid song..............not quite true, at least if i'm gonna be positive it can't be. definatly not for him.
i suppose self control is a good thing.
sleep is good. being busy is good.
i'm not sure of anything....
it sux to keep hearing from EVERYONE!!! that you're special, he's different around you, and yadayadayada... and in the back of your mind you keep hearing, don't get used to this, you know it's not true, it can't be true, he'll never really let that, that's one reason you like him, yadayadayada....everyone said it and acted like, oh who knows what they expected, for some it was the same story as their life, for some it's why they hoped would happen for them, for some it was just what was normal. whatever they thought i KNEW it couldn't be true, too many late night talks. too much logic. if that's possible. still i let myself be sucked into their thinkin, at least a little, it's hard not too! i heard it every stinkin day, even at home! and now what was inevitable, obviously, is now true. and i'll still be hearing it. you would think that old friends would understand best but no! they're just as bad. no one understands. that's what makes it so hard, no one else does this. i swear no one in the world, yet another reason, therefore no one gets it, except maybe my two sife buddies, except they are very selective on when they understand. i should shut up. i think i need a hug. Vegas will do.
current mood: very sad--such an evil emotion

how can that be...

How can you feel like you've lost something you've never really had?

Song of the Night: I'm not that Girl from Wicked

life is goo!!

Isn't life just wonderful? Mine is at least. Nothing could be better. I take that back but only for one second. I've always wished I either needed no sleep or that the day was longer. that would be nice.

Song of the Night

Yes it probably counts under pop but it still says alot tonight. I should stop listening to it.
Hold Me by Savage Garden

What to write....

So today I escorted Amanda to the airport to pick up Sarah, Judge, Reed, and E. (We saw Rachael too but she took the coconut. Did you know coconuts could fly? Only with the help of an African Sparrow. Anyways...) A few eventful things happened. David came along to so we didn't have to squeeze a million ppl in one tiny little Laie Special. So David has one walkie and I have the other. That was fun. Everytime I started a new comment his first response was "What?". I later decided I should've "called" first to get his attention. oh well. So by the time we were at the airport and had everyone and baggaged we had: almost got in one accident, acquired 2 carts and had the boys push us around, dumped Amanda off her cart, kicked one "Safety First" sign, thrown another "Safety First" sign, found out the boys had slept together at the airport (that sounds so wrong!!teehee), leied all the travelers, and thrown back when Sarah ran at me and attacked me with a hug. The ride home was great too cause Judge, who must have been VERY jet-lagged cause he gave all us girls hugs later, sang to us through the walkie and Reed said some very entertaining things about where the walkie was and what had been listening or not.
All in all it was very good day, a long day but good.